Concert Rankings – 2019!

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Here we go! The annual, sometimes controversial, concert rankings!

Admittedly, this year was a little “lighter”. Only 15 bands ranked this year! But… the tough thing about seeing fewer bands than normal is they’re harder to rank, because frankly, all the shows I saw this year were pretty awesome. So here’s my attempt to rank ’em!

15. Jagwar Twin (Meridian Hall, October 6th 2019)

For everyone reading this over the age of 25, you know when you go to a concert and see an opening band and while you’re sipping your drink it hits you…. you are too old for this band. That’s happened to  me a few times, but was pretty evident when Jagwar Twin hit the stage, opening for Avril Lavigne. In this case I realized I was probably old enough to be the mother of anyone a fan of this band…

14. July Talk (Scotiabank Arena, April 26th 2019)

CONTROVERSIAL RANKING ALERT (except if you’re Rob Duffy). I love July Talk, and I love seeing them live. But I can’t put my finger on it, this night wasn’t right. I think it was a combination of the fact they were the opener for Metric, and so they were playing to a near-empty venue. And while July Talk have a huge sound, I am not 100% sure they’re ready for arenas yet, or that it’s the right venue for them at all. The best part of this band is feeling like you’re apart of their frantic energy on stage, and feeling connected. Being in a venue like the Scotiabank Arena puts a lot of physical distance between us and the band. Even when I’ve seen them at festivals it’s felt more intimate. Thankfully, I did also see July Talk another time this year (stay tuned for a special ranking on that), so all was not lost!

13. Avril Lavigne (Meridian Hall, October 6th 2019)

You’re probably thinking, “Tesla, why were you at an Avril Lavigne concert?!” It was a surprise for Sean’s brother, who is a huge fan! I will say… it was a lot of fun rocking out to songs I haven’t heard since high school. It was also really cool to see the next generation of young girls singing along to Avril’s hits. The knock I’d give against her is that her voice isn’t that strong, but she was smart enough to keep her ballads to just a medley to avoid burning out her pipes!

12. Of Monsters and Men (Budweiser Stage, September 11th 2019)

Honestly, everything from Iceland is just so cool. These guys have made the rankings before, and I was really looking forward to this show as I love their latest album, Fever Dream. The atmosphere for this show was interesting – it was a rainy night by the lake, and so there was a fog settling amongst the crowd (thankfully for Kim & I, we were under the roof. Sadly, my buds John & Val were not so lucky). And also… a lot of people were surprisingly drunk for an indie folk/rock concert! Overall, I loved this show. This band are incredibly talented, and they always sound so polished live. My one gripe is there were some “slow” moments through the setlist where I found they kept too many slow songs together, instead of mixing it up with their hits. But anytime I get to dance to “Little Talks” is always a good night in my books!

11. Metric (Scotiabank Arena, April 26th 2019)

So I learned something this year. I learned that when you’re dealing with a lot of emotional stress, you can have next to no recollection of memorable events… and this concert is one of those nights. I actually forgot I attended this concert at all until I was going through my calendar. Thankfully, I make notes (yes I know, I can’t help being Type A), and it helped jog my memory. The main reason, I think, this concert is locked away in my memory bank is because it was unexpectedly emotional. As Emily Haines was singing “No Lights on the Horizon” I realized that the last new CD I brought home for my Dad to listen to was Metric. So cue some tears. Aside from that moment, the other standout memory was “Dressed to Suppress” sounding phenomenal live (I do recall jumping along to that one and belting it out), and the song showcased not only Emily Haines’ incredible talents, but Jimmy Shaw was excellent on guitar.  Hopefully, the next time I see them will stick in the forefront a little more!

10. Vampire Weekend (Echo Beach, June 5th 2019)

This concert definitely sticks in my memory – which is ironic because I spent most of the show on my tip-toes trying to see! This would rank as one of the tallest crowds I’ve ever stood in. BUT, they opened with “Harmony Hall” and instantly I didn’t care whether I could see or not! I think Vampire Weekend would win one of the best setlists of the year. Their catalogue is so extensive, there’s always going to be something you don’t hear, but considering this was my first ever show of theirs, I heard all of the heavy hitters. But performance aside, something else made this night memorable. I ended up spending the concert hanging out with my co-worker and friend, Rob Duffy, and a group of his close friends. It was really special getting to hear them reminisce about the previous Vampire Weekend shows they’ve attended, and seeing the bonds this group have. I felt honoured to be with them!

9. The Head and the Heart (Meridian Hall, October 20th 2019)

I seem to have a strange tradition – anytime I run a race, I seem to have a concert either that night or the day before! On this day I got myself out of bed at about 6am to run in the Scotiabank Toronto Waterfront 5km, and somehow I stayed awake long enough to enjoy a concert! But this was a night for celebrating! Our friends John & Val had literally just bought their first home, and it was the first time we could all really sit back and toast. So with all of that as the backdrop, we were able to enjoy a really fun concert. The Head and the Heart are such a perfect mix of country, folk, and rock. They rank, for me, as one of those bands (like Alt-J), that I discovered and fell in love with when I was living on my own and would listen to Indie88 all the time in my little basement apartment. Their hit “Shake” was everywhere on radio, and it immediately brings me back to those times as I discovered who I wanted to be. Whenever I get to see a band like this with Sean, it makes everything feel very “full circle”. Their latest album Living Mirage is definitely their most mature, and in some respects “mainstream”, but I was happy that it translated well on stage. The album was a fixture this summer, as my mom was always blasting it on the stereo whenever we’d visit. Their harmonies as a band are just incredible, and I love the swells in so many of their choruses. To me, their music is happiness and joy, even though so many of their songs are about loss. I guess, in some ways, it’s how I see the beauty in some of life’s toughest moments.

8. Dream Serenade (Roy Thompson Hall, November 2nd 2019)

I thought a lot about how to rank this night. Dream Serenade isn’t a band, but rather it’s a benefit concert put on by the artist Hayden and a slew of guest artists. It was a beautiful night of music and inspiring stories. The concert itself benefits families of children with different physical and developmental disabilities and their caregivers. On the bill, officially, were acts like Donovan Woods, U.S. Girls, Shad, Barenaked Ladies, July Talk and Matt Berninger (lead singer of The National). Alongside these artists, surprise guests made the night feel even more special. Canadian 80’s rock band Rough Trade came out and sang “High School Confidential” with the Barenaked Ladies, Tom Cochrane performed three songs (and even convinced Kevin Drew to come on stage during “Life is a Highway”), and Basia Bulat performed alongside U.S. Girls. This night truly felt like something special and meaningful to so many. And also… it was really funny being in the same concession line as Kevin Drew and Jason Collett! Big thanks to our friends Kevin & Heather for the last minute invite, as I think Sean & I will definitely try to make this a regular on our calendar!

7. Massive Attack (Meridian Hall, September 18th 2019)

This was an anniversary tour, with Massive Attack touring their album Mezzanine for its 20th anniversary. This album was a staple in the Beard household through my early teens. Hearing it immediately takes me back: The song “Protection” is playing, I’m sitting on the couch in my parents’ living room, the lights dimmed with my mom’s 10,000 candles going, and my dad sitting in his favourite chair, beer in hand, legs crossed and his toe tapping along to the beat. I am probably taking fistfuls of chips and trying to figure out where my cat has gone hiding (he used to hate my dad’s stereo). We might have had a hockey game on the TV, or maybe not. People might be visiting, or maybe it’s just the three of us. And then maybe I’d wander back upstairs, because after all it was the heyday of ICQ & mIRC chats, so I probably had people to chat with online. And in so many ways I’m desperate to go back to those times. This concert brought up a lot of those feelings.

Nostalgia aside, Massive Attack put on an incredible stage show. It was a sensory overload with an incredible light show and giant video screen behind the band that played an eclectic mix of videos. Everything from soundwaves, to videos of war torn countries. Mezzanine is, of course, a dark album from a dark time in the band’s history. The show, in so many ways, was perfect for the tone of the album (which has aged incredibly. Give it a listen if you have never heard of this band). My nit-pick moments with the show – at times I felt the vocals were drowned out by the instruments (especially Liz Fraser on “Teardrop” sadly), and I would place a heavy bet that many members of the band still aren’t friendly, as there was little interaction between members.  However, getting to hear the aforementioned “Teardrop” live, amongst others, felt like checking a bucket list item off.

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6. Joseph (Mod Club, September 24th 2019)

My girls! I flipping love this band. I discovered them at Field Trip, and haven’t looked back since. Their harmonies, their lyrics, and just even their style. If I was in an all-girl band, I would probably want it to be something like Joseph. MC and I had a date night for this show, and it was a fantastic night! We were close (OMG I COULD SEE EVERYTHING. It was glorious), and our favourite three sisters – Natalie, Allie, and Meeghan, were in perfect form with their vocals absolutely filling the room, and Natalie’s guitar playing on point. Their energy on stage is infectious, and as MC so aptly put it – “they are really FEELING every lyric”. I think my favourite part of the night was when Allie coyly asked the Mod Club staff if the disco ball could be lit up for the next song, which happened to be their song “NYE” from their latest album. When the chorus hit, the disco ball started going and it was magical! And yes, this song will be played at our New Year’s Eve party! Again… highly recommend these girls and please check them out if you want a badass blend of folk harmonies with a little rock & roll. (And if you don’t believe me, please watch this video of their song “Green Eyes” and don’t tell me their blend of delicate vocals with all out wails isn’t perfection)

5. Snow Patrol (Danforth Music Hall, May 3rd 2019)

I’ve obviously already written a little bit about this concert in my “12 Days of 2019“, so I’ll try not to repeat myself too much about the emotional weight behind this concert. I’ve only been able to see Snow Patrol once before, and that was over 7 years ago, but Mom & I both agreed they were an incredibly talented band to see live. And this night was no different – with my one complaint being that it felt they ended the night too early (only 17 songs!!) However, I will say the 17 songs they did play were nearly perfect (nearly… except for the fact they didn’t play “Spitting Games” possibly my favourite tune of theirs BUT FINE, I WILL FORGIVE THEM). OK, back to the actual concert… Gary Lightbody’s voice was perfect, and the entire band brought forth a huge amount of energy. Gary even politely asked the crowd to remain quiet during some of their slower songs in order for us all to properly enjoy the moment, something I really appreciated! (In case you haven’t noticed… I hate when people talk through concerts…) It’s really a shame that people only know this band as the “Grey’s Anatomy” band with the song about chasing cars… because they should be selling out arenas (their sound can easily fill one). I guess I should be thankful, though, that I still get to see them in intimate venues! I highly recommend their latest album Wildness, especially the song “Life on Earth” which sounded incredible live. Next time, boys, play a longer set OK??

4. Arkells (Budweiser Stage, June 22nd 2019)

Fourth time seeing these guys in two years, you think I’d be getting sick of them? Well, the former top-ranked band are back in the top five! This year’s outdoor show at the Amp had a Motown theme, and even though some of our friends didn’t enjoy the Motown laced encore, Sean & I had a blast. Also… how can you really top Raptors head coach Nick Nurse coming out to perform?? I mean COME ON. It was PERFECT. The city was still electric from the Raptors win, and this concert really officially kicked summer off. Yes, the encore filled with cover songs meant we didn’t get to hear a lot of Arkells classics… but I am totally OK with it. It was just SO.MUCH.FUN. And memorable, and one of a kind, and something we’ll never experience again! I’ll re-live it all again.

Honourable Mention. F*ck the Bridge (The Great Hall, February 23rd 2019)

Before I get into the top 3, I’d be completely remiss if I didn’t give a shoutout to one of the most special performances I was able to witness this year. In case you didn’t read my “12 Days” post, then you would have missed the shoutout to John & Val’s incredible wedding day, featuring a live performance by the bride herself in her band! They performed a three song set of meaningful songs – “Stay” by U2, “Never Thought That This Would Happen” by Arkells, and “I Believe in a Thing Called Love” by The Darkness. (Please check out the videos, my words really don’t do justice how awesome it is so see a bride in her dress rocking out on the bass and keyboards, not mention how talented the band is!) My personal favourite “I’m getting chills moment” is always when we watch their Arkells cover and the strings come in. That will stick with me forever.

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3. Broken Social Scene (Danforth Music Hall, April 25th 2019)

A year doesn’t feel complete if I haven’t seen BBS live in concert! I’ve begun to lose count, and they’ve made numerous appearances on this list. It’s always hard for me to pass up a chance to see one of my favourite bands perform live. So let’s talk about how the heck this made Top 3. First and foremost – FEIST. She rarely performs with the band anymore, so it’s always special getting to hear her sing some of my favourites like “Hotel” (Side note.. they also brought out Jason Collett! He also NEVER plays with them anymore!!). Now, let me also set the scene for what made this show extra special… They opened with “Pacific Theme” and we were off and running! Except… Kevin Drew’s amp then starting to have issues. The result? An impromptu jam session! Rob & I felt like we were getting to watch a glimpse of what it must be like in the recording studio. It was so much fun, and one of my favourite live BSS moments of all time. The other highlight of the night? Kevin Drew asking everyone to scream to let their demons out. You can bet I yelled the loudest. Spending a night with BSS is like catching up with an old friend you haven’t seen in awhile, but you know they’ve got your back, and you always pick up right where you left off.

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2. Tame Impala (Budweiser Stage, July 26th 2019)

Probably THE most anticipated show of the year for not only myself and Sean but also John & Val who joined us on this wonderful Friday night. I had my Dad on my mind a lot before and during this show. We gave my Dad a copy of Tame Impala’s last record Currents, and I don’t think he ever stopped playing it. He and I talked a lot about making sure we’d all go see them live next time they came to town. So it was incredibly bittersweet to be there without him. But, in so many ways, he was still there. From the Budweiser in my hand, to the picture perfect sunset that preceded the concert, to the energy in the air that summer night. The entire concert start to finish was a blast (with a lot more confetti canons than I would have expected!). Absolutely no lulls in the setlist, and the new material sounded incredible. One of the great aspects of Tame Impala is even slower jams like “The Less I Know The Better” still make you sway and feel engaged with the performance (versus running for the concession stand) It was another visually entertaining show with lots of lasers, moving lights – making you feel like you had simultaneously taken drugs and gone to space. (Again, like Massive Attack though, not a fun experience if you’re light sensitive!) The band sounded phenomenal, just like I remembered them from Massey Hall in 2015. We were definitely left wanting more, with so many incredible songs still left on the table (thankfully… we already have tickets to see them again in 2020!)

*drum roll please* 

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1. White Lies (Mod Club, May 4th 2019) 

If I had posted my Spotify summary of 2019 it would have spoiled this result, this year for me has been the year of White Lies. They released their album Five earlier this winter, and it would definitely land as my “Album of the Year”, with the lead single “Tokyo” as one of my favourite songs of the year too. (Oh, and that song sounded incredible live!) I just had an absolute blast at this concert, dancing and belting out tunes. I’ve reflected back on this show the most, and in a heartbeat would go back to this show before all others I saw this year. White Lies are a big sound band playing in small venues, and like Snow Patrol, I wish they could be playing arenas. Their music is built for it (in fact, in Europe they do often play larger shows). In true British rock fashion, they are charming and know how to engage a crowd. Everyone sings along, jumps, and dances. They started out flawlessly – opened with “Time To Give”, slapped us all with the older jam “Farewell to the Fairgrounds”, and then launched into “There Goes Our Love Again” (the song that Sean told me to check out on our first date, which sent me down a spiral of love for this band… and I guess in some ways Sean! Haha). They didn’t let up, until closer “Bigger Than Us” when we all knew it was time to go home. I didn’t want the show to end, and could have gone for another round. My concert of the year with a bullet, and really hope they come back again sooner than later (or who knows, maybe we can catch them in their native England).

That’s it everyone! Thanks for reading! As always, get out there and experience what you love whether it’s concerts, the theatre, whatever! It’ll fuel your soul and lift you up. Take care, and enjoy the holidays! I’ll leave you with White Lies to take us home… 

 

 

 

 

 

 

12 Days of 2019

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I feel like I broke a bit of a promise. I came out of hiding and wrote my first entry about grieving, and then just stopped… Naturally, one of the blog ideas I have for my informal “series” on grief is about motivation, and how I seem to have lost it. I did really expect to keep writing, it felt really therapeutic to do so last time, but here we are, nearing the end of 2019 and I didn’t keep it up.

I am sure many of us out there are feeling the same. Where did the time go? There’s also the added knowledge that a decade is ending… forcing all of us to wonder, where did the past ten years go?! It’s a humbling time, and for me this year, an overwhelming experience. I’ll get into that in more detail another time, but really, I haven’t felt this “stuck” in a long time.

Therefore, in my quest to begin to rediscover myself, my passions, and frankly, to reconnect with people, here is the annual tradition. Here, in chronological order, are the 12 Days of 2019* that shaped my life.

December 21st 2018*

Yes, I am cheating and including a date from last year! BUT… technically, this date happened after I published last year’s 12 days… so I am including it! On December 21st, I woke up in a terrible mood. I had a few things planned: go to the gym, get my nails done, and finish Christmas shopping. Then Sean and I were going to relax before heading out on our annual Christmas journey visiting all of our families. My anxiety was not happy, however, because I had slept in, and in my mind that meant I ruined my entire day.  And so I woke up, cried, got angry and just generally spent the day in a “mood”. Flash forward to the evening, I was feeling a little better. Sean and I were heading out to Kringlewood, our Christmas tradition. On Inglewood Drive near St. Clair and Mount Pleasant, the entire street is filled with giant inflatable Santas. (And all of the houses look like they are straight out of Home Alone.) We love going! This year, as Sean and I were about to leave I asked him for a hug. I noticed something odd, his heart was POUNDING. I was a little alarmed, but he seemed okay so I didn’t bring it up… We get home from the street of Santas, and we begin wrapping some gifts. Sean keeps the music going playing Haim, Sam Roberts, and The Beatles. Finally, about three hours after we got home from Kringlewood, I go to the bathroom. This is a key detail. Sean needed to place a special item in our Christmas tree, and he needed me out of the room. What he didn’t count on is that I would nurse one small beer and somehow not need a pee break for hours! I wander out from the bathroom and Sean hands me a card. Inside, it contained all the funny and embarrassing quotes he has had over the years. But 2018 was blank, and when I asked why he didn’t put a quote for 2018, he answered by reaching into our Christmas tree and pulling out a tiny box. He then got down on one knee, and for the second time that day I was crying. Needless to say though, these were some of the happiest tears of my life.

January 13th 2019

I’ve written about my wonderful group of girlfriends before, and on this day we finally got all of us in one room. It’s a rare feat! Everyone is always so busy and scattered amongst Southern Ontario. Throw in some kids and it truly is like herding cats! Admittedly, they’re a group I feel I  have most unintentionally disconnected myself from as this year has gone by. I feel I didn’t reach out as much as I should, or just check in as often as I should have with others. We have a group chat where we vent, share stories, memes, and provide a space for all of us to seek comfort when we need it. Given how busy everyone is, and my tendency to not want to burden people with my problems, I definitely became more withdrawn as the year went on. I’ve been through a lot of conflicting emotions. I’ve often felt forgotten about, or I’ve let my anxiety sometimes convince me that people don’t want to reach out to me because they know my answers might be depressing (and that is in general, not specifically directed to this group). Recently, most of us attended a Christmas party hosted by our friends Amanda & Alan, and it was really wonderful to be surrounded by this group again. There’s so much love, and I am truly grateful to have them in my corner when I need it. Now hopefully we’ll all be in the same room more than once in 2020!

February 8th 2019

The best and worst part about everyday life is that when you wake up each day, you truly have no idea what surprises might occur. Maybe one day you’ll wake up and discover you’ve won the lottery, or that the rainy forecast for your outdoor BBQ has turned sunny. Little or big, each day has the potential to catch you off guard. But nothing, absolutely nothing, prepares you for having the rug pulled out from underneath you. On this day I went to work, and Sean picked me up afterwards. We were going to spend the evening supporting a friend of ours at the opening night of his play in Scarborough. A pretty standard Friday. And then I checked my phone at intermission. Missed calls. Voicemails. I stepped outside, and called my aunt. Then the world stopped. Just like that. For a brief time, as I sat in the lobby of the theatre being consoled by our friends, there was part of me that truly believed if I never left that bench, reality would never catch up to me. I wouldn’t have to go to Welland and deal with a world without my father.

Sadly, that’s not what happens when life hands you devastating news. You have to deal with it, whether you want to or not.

February 17th 2019 

Somehow through the fog, we planned my dad’s Celebration of Life. We chose the Welland Legion, namely because it was informal and a place where we could host a large party to celebrate him. He would have been so furious with us if we planned a full blown funeral. He wanted laughter, music, and memories to be shared. We had a feeling the turnout would be large (Dad was, after all, part of a big family), but we were completely blown away that at least 400 people came through the doors to bid their farewell. It was a flood of memories and faces I hadn’t seen in years. Reunions some of us never thought possible. But most of all, it was incredibly moving to see the impact my father made on people. How many of us can say they will pack a room to its capacity when their time is up? It also made me reflect a lot on how he lived his life. I often feel bad that I never took my parents travelling, or that Dad & I never made it to New York. Those of us who escape to big cities tend to think we have larger social circles than the ones we leave behind in the small towns. But at the end of the day, through the roots my Dad created by staying in Welland nearly his entire life, my Dad cast a web far greater than I could ever hope to. (I will also say, he was also really good at keeping connected to distant family and friends). Geographically, his world was small. But socially, my Dad was the Mayor of Margaret Street. Everyone was welcome in his home, and it shows in the lasting relationships and bonds he created. I now want to strive to create those bonds for myself. To host friends in the same manner he did. To welcome strangers without judgement. Mom and I did him proud that day, and I think back to that afternoon often, wishing in some ways I could go back and share more stories, more laughs, and more tears.

February 23rd 2019

Have you ever been to a wedding where not only the bride & groom open the dance floor with hip hop karaoke, but where the bride also performs a 3 song setlist with her rock band? Because that’s exactly what we did at John & Val’s wedding! In the days leading up to their wedding, I really had no idea how I would get through it. Not only was I still on an emotional roller coaster, but this wedding meant a lot to Sean & I since we were seeing some of our closest friends wed (and for Sean, he also had Best Man duties to fulfill!) I was also dreading having to answer questions. Many people at the wedding were also present the night I got the call about my Dad. It was a lot. But, at the end of the day, life is not only about mourning loss, but celebrating love and joy. And it was so incredible to be one of the many people there to support John & Val, and shower them with support for a happy life together. The night created a host of new memories for us all to share (with a video made by John to prove it).

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March 5th 2019

My father passed away just weeks before his 66th birthday. Nearly immediately after his death, my aunt and several others began asking the City of Welland to find a way to honour the man who so beautifully captured the town’s spirits in his artwork. Incredibly, they put together the perfect tribute. Thanks to the Welland Canal, the city has an iconic bridge, Bridge 13. Similar bridges have lined the Canal throughout its history, and my father used these bridges as many of his muses. So on what would have been his 66th birthday, the bridge was lit up in my father’s favourite colour – deep blue. All day it had been snowing, much to the chagrin of my mom.  But ultimately, I like to think my dad made that happen. Because with the bridge surrounded by a fresh snowfall, it truly stood out. The dark night sky also helped give the bridge a brilliant glow. It was definitely eerie to see it, and know that it was for him. One of the most surreal moments of my life. It was another time, too, where I truly appreciated the mark my dad left because, as a friend pointed out, not many people will ever get honoured by their community in such a manner.

May 3rd 2019

This year I was able to get my mom to Toronto TWICE! If you know my mom, you’ll know that this is quite momentous. I was also able to take her to two concerts – Massive Attack in September, and Snow Patrol. This, like all things in 2019, was bittersweet. The Snow Patrol tickets were a Christmas gift to my parents. They had such a great time coming to visit us in 2017 to see Alt-J at Massey Hall, and I felt Snow Patrol would be a great band to take them to next. (And actually, mom and I saw Snow Patrol together back in 2012, where a then-unknown singer named Ed Sheeran opened for them!) But the day, despite the feeling that something wasn’t quite right, was still extremely memorable and joyful. My Aunt Lorraine joined my mom on the trip up to Toronto, and together we made it a really fun ladies night! I took them shopping downtown at Sonic Boom, and we hung out at my apartment. At dinner, MC joined us to complete the foursome. The concert was emotional, but it felt therapeutic to be there at the same time. I had a Budweiser for Dad during the show, and at some point I think most of us shed a few tears. It was certainly an emotional release that I needed, and we all know the power that music has to heal. (More on the concert itself to come in my annual Rankings!) And also, my mom and aunt definitely learned they’re still a couple of party animals. We went out for drinks after the concert, and even though I dropped them off at their hotel just after Midnight, those two stayed up well into the night laughing and partying at their hotel room! Needless to say, some naps were needed the next day!

July 15th 2019

I took a week off during the summer to spend an extended amount of time back in beautiful Niagara. One of my favourite childhood haunts is Rock Point Provincial Park. We spent many summer nights camping there, and many more days at the beach (even if it was just for the day). I could write an entire novel of happy memories from there! This day was my first time back in about six years. The shoreline was definitely a little beat up from the abornally wet spring, but the view of Lake Erie was just as I remember. As my mom always says, the water is very healing. And it was. It felt amazing to be in the sun, laughing with everyone, and listening to the waves. I know most will say nothing beats white sandy beaches along the ocean, but I’ll take Lake Erie any day of the week. I love days like this when you can reminisce, and feel like a kid again.

July 18th 2019

While I was home in the summer, my cousin Amber was insisting that I go try on wedding dresses. I was hesitant because we didn’t have the entire entourage with us. I didn’t want to leave anyone out of the process! So there we were, having a platter of BBQ for lunch when finally she wore me down. I agreed to go to Second Dance Bridal in St. Catharines just to, in her words, “toot around a little bit”. I wasn’t exactly feeling “bridal” after inhaling about three different types of meat, French fries and coleslaw, so I didn’t think we’d be successful finding a dress. After all, what were the odds my mom, Amber and I would find it at the first store? … Well… pretty good odds it turns out! After trying on about 6 or 7 dresses that clearly weren’t “the one”, the helpful store assistant Sam announced that she had one more dress for me try on. She told us it was her favourite dress the store had ever received, and that she thought I would love it. Amber hated it on the hanger, but I was having fun so I put it on. As soon as I stepped out of the dressing room it was game over. My mom started crying and we all slowly realized I was wearing “the dress”! And then we realized how much trouble we were going to be in because we were missing my Aunt Lorraine, my cousin Shauna, and my BFF Maid of Honour MC… but it was all worth it because the dress is stunning and I cannot wait to show Sean on our wedding day!

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August 7th 2019

At the end of 2018 I joined WISE – Women in Sports & Events. It’s part of my efforts to help further my career and advance my contacts within the industry. And also, they host some really cool events. On this day, we lucked out. It was a Tennis themed event, taking place at the Rogers Cup, and as luck would have it, we’d get to see the legend, Serena Williams! But the main reason I was attending the event was because of the guest speaker – Stacey Allastar. Ms. Allaster is not only a fellow Wellander, but also part of a unique group. Allastar is one of five women from Welland, in the same age range, who went on to hold executive positions in sports management. See this article from the Toronto Star for the full scope (it’s really freaking cool actually.) For me, a career goal would be to be considered equal among those women. Allastar spoke a lot about the challenges women face working in sports. A lot of women leave the industry to start families, or find themselves pushed out of “boys clubs”. I was so inspired hearing her speak, and hearing about her journey. It re-energized me, and my passion for my career. And then, as the sun was setting, the cherry on top was getting to watch Serena Williams go to work. Another female who has overcome so much adversity, continues to battle her demons, but yet still strives to be the best. An incredibly empowering evening, and one I won’t soon forget.

 August 24th 2019

Sometimes, some of the best nights are the simplest. We went down to Niagara to visit my mom and we spent the afternoon playing shuffle board in the backyard. That night, we ended up at the Nagy’s house for a bonfire. The Nagy’s are long-time friends of my parents, in fact, my Dad & Brian had been friends since childhood. I have countless memories of spending time with their daughters, making dumb homemade videos, bonfires in their backyard, Christmas parties, skating on their homemade ice rink, and camping together at Long Point Provincial Park. I can’t explain, but there was something extra special about this August night. The music Brian had selected was as if my Dad was the one curating the playlist. Old songs from albums I hadn’t heard in years sparked an overwhelming sense of nostalgia. And then, the fish fry started and we ate some of the most delicious fish tacos I have ever had in my life! The stars were shining bright, and the air was fresh. A cozy, comfortable night in Dain City.

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September 19th 2019

I am pretty darn lucky. I work with an incredibly dedicated group of people, who bust their butts all year long. It’s hard to find someone at TSN who is underworked. And so when the TSN Fun Squad started the ball hockey tournament, it became a huge success because it provided us with a time to cool off, have some friendly (or not so friendly at times) competition, and have fun together. It’s important to be reminded why you get up every day and drag yourself out to Scarborough. My team, “Run PMC” (with the PMC standing for Programming-Marketing-Communications), didn’t make it to the playoffs (we lost a heartbreaker in the Round Robin), but it was still an awesome day under the sun. Some of us grabbed drinks afterwards on a nearby patio, and it felt like the perfect way to end summer. My 2020 goal: get the gang all together more often to share more laughs and give each other a chance to appreciate the incredible people we get to call coworkers.

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There’s many more days I could have, and wanted to write about, but when I reflect back on the year, these are some of the days I am most drawn to. Thanks for indulging me, and I hope you all get a chance to reflect back on your own 2019 experiences, good and bad.

As a preview of sorts for my annual concert rankings, here’s one of my favourite songs of 2019. Tame Impala released this song just before my birthday on March 22nd. I listened to it for the first time on the TTC as I made my way downtown to do a little shopping. I had to hold back tears because the lyrics felt like they were perfectly capturing how I had been feeling since February. I could also just picture my Dad blasting this song on his stereo. Despite the fact that it was making me cry, I often turn to this song for a pick-me up. It’s got a catchy disco-psychedelic beat that only Tame Impala can pull off.

Enjoy, and Merry Christmas!